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Regrouping? - a world of possibility
lost my camera the day I was coming home - either in my classroom, which would be great b/c someone from class likely woulda picked it up since I left before everyone, OR it dropped or was stolen on the train :/

Luckily my folks are going to lend me theirs till I come home again and if mine doesn't show up in a week help me out with getting a new one (I paid for the other one). I love my folks

so . . . it will be a few days till I update with pictures

but for now . . .

holeedays, well the ones I come home (MD) for, are almost always a time for reflection at some point during the trip. Usually late at night when I'm ready to go to sleep . . . but just can't.

Seen some friends the last few days, and it seems I am not the only one with worries about relationships in the ways that I worry. I mean I know it is normal to have thoughts, but I wasn't sure if my specific musings meant something other than just that I am a curious person who likes to think too much at times.

Saw some peple I hadn't seen since the end of HS! That was nice actually, overwhelming with some people, but just nice with others. I will put a few pictures up, maybe of b/4 and after if I feel overly energetic (always fun to see).

Tonight I will be doing what I used to do a fair amount in HS, and even after - going solo to a movie. I actually enjoy this. I used to go when I was upset and wanted to figure things out, as well as when I just wanted some down time (cause when you are in HS and live with your folks, there isn't much "me" space), or if I just felt like going out and no one else could go.

After talking with my folks and some others about my plans starting in the spring, I'm getting excited, but also nervous, about my theatre company (which I'll be starting to put together in the spring). It is something I want to do and feel quite capable of. What I am nervous about is the educational part. I have a feeling it will turn out ok, especially if I find the kind of people with the kind of experience I'm hoping for. If not I'll be reading a whole bunch about drama therapy and such.

I've also been re-reminded to look outside of myself as well as within. It's tough since I tend to be stubborn by nature. It helps to be reminded how huge a variety of views there are in looking at one single situation.

I also found I've grown up in some ways - I'm capable of relating to my grandmother - which is a big step for me as only a couple years ago I wouldn't even talk to her. Sometimes I still ghet offended and want to take her and say "look you can't control everything", but then I just let her have her opinion because it makes her happy. I'm like her in some ways in that I like to have control over my life to some extent. She always has good intentions, they just don't always come across that way.

ok enough musings as I have a movie to go catch, teeth to brush (didn't have time this morning so I feel yugh, but at least I had some mints, I drink a great deal of water, and usually have anough food in my system, so it's not as bad as it could have been) and maybe a jump in my folks hot tub when I got back (of course they got one AFTER I moved out)

lots of pictures from this trip, so lots to post on here in the next week or so.

I hope all be well

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picoland From: picoland Date: November 27th, 2005 12:17 pm (UTC) (Link)
ugh, that sux. We've been enjoying your picture posts.
moowazz From: moowazz Date: November 30th, 2005 03:04 pm (UTC) (Link)
thank you :)

that means a lot
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