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Edison learned 2000 ways not to make a light bulb (in addition to at least 1 way TO make one) - a world of possibility
Edison learned 2000 ways not to make a light bulb (in addition to at least 1 way TO make one)
I came to MD for 1 day to see my uncle's movie at the Avalon theatre in D.C.

A friend I've known since high-school picked myself and my cousin up from the train station in baltimore. We went to lunch. As we were walking back to her apartment (friend, not cousin) I realized something that made me smile. The 3 of us compliment each other - and probably many of my friends, but we just happened to be the people present during my thought process.

We were talking about some siuation - and each of us gave a different point of view, a different take on why the preson in the said situation would act as they did. We all compared this to how each of us would act in the situation - well I didn't out loud, only in my head, while they spoke it out loud. In addition we are all going into 3 entirely separate fields (of course anything can be connected in some way, but we'll save that philosophy for later).
One = med school
one = law school
one = psychology & acting

In this case 1+1+1 = infinite possiblities

I have other friends who either work, learn, or know about special ed teaching, teaching a foreign language (I believe), building computers, website construction/design/maintanence, neurology/pharmocology (I can never remember - probably because I don't understand exactly what it is, so I have nothing in my previous experience to attach it to) and so on.

It's nice to see that in some way "my generation", or better yet, the people I know are a small part of what make the world what it is.

As for my uncle's movie last night, I think it went well. I wish more people had sowed up - but I didn't really push the issue onto my friends, just sent an e-mail out. I was a bit dissappointed that one friend hadn't shown up as we had tried to get together during my last visit home, but I'm pretty sure it wasn't on purpose.

We get older, busier, priorities change. I have not yet decided if this is good or bad.

My priorities - not sure if they have changed that much, I think in some ways they have always been skewed. Skewed differently at different times, but leaning one way or another.

I used to sometimes watch movies and get upset - not ebcause it was a sad film, but because I knew I could be up there in the part of the female who was close to my age, and do the job just as well. It could be a play too - I just don't go to plays as often as movies. And yet I never really did all that much about it - or rather, I didn't take my opportunities to the fullest potential.

Now I am lucky enough to have a great opportunity in LA in August - while those who know me know I am more a theatre person - I won't say no to movies and film as they will pay the bills. And if I have money to support myself, I can afford to start my theatre company on my own, rather than with grants, and also do theatre with other companies with much less pay. In addition acting is acting - no matter what format, and that is what I truly love to do - something, which when I am without it I don't feel as if I am truly living my life.

So I just need to do as much work for my monologues and singing as my school work so I am fully prepared and give it my best in LA. I guess part of me hasn't quite accepted the true possiblity of me being successful in my acting from something as simple as this event. I have always pushed myself way too hard, needing to feel worthy of whatever it is I get - when in reality if I want it and am capable, why do I have to earn it? Why don't I just deserve it? As long as I appreciate it. Therefore why can't I be successful?

I almost always get "thinky" when I come home(MD) - and I have no idea why. It's sometimes disturbing, soemtimes scary, sometimes wonderful.

Anyhow I need to leave soon for my drive up to NYC.

I hope all is wonderful


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sassenach From: sassenach Date: June 2nd, 2005 02:02 pm (UTC) (Link)

*fingers crossed*
moowazz From: moowazz Date: July 2nd, 2005 05:47 am (UTC) (Link)
thanks :)

how are things in Ohi Oh?

btw I'm adding a link to your and will's websites on mine (yep - I'm finally entering the world of web and claiming some space of my own). I hope you don't mind :)
sassenach From: sassenach Date: July 2nd, 2005 01:29 pm (UTC) (Link)
not at all....

pretty good--you need to come visit sometime :)
From: (Anonymous) Date: July 2nd, 2005 04:36 pm (UTC) (Link)
yes i do! prolly won't be till school is done though. Maybe - if malcom likes rollercoasters - we can take a trip to cedar point. Though just Ohio (and NOT the city) sounds quite nice :)
pamlin From: pamlin Date: June 2nd, 2005 03:12 pm (UTC) (Link)
That is sooo cool!! keep us posted about life and times on the Left Coast.

BTW, are you looking for someone to sublet? I might know someone who is moving to NYC in August for a one-year acting conservatory.
moowazz From: moowazz Date: July 2nd, 2005 05:48 am (UTC) (Link)
Hey :)

not sure if I ever responded or not. 1 - not looking for sublet as I will only be away for 2 weeks - and the apartment will only be empty for 1 of those as boy will be here during my L.A. week.

How is all with you? drop me an e-mail if you get a chance - I am almost NEVER on here.

i hope all is well :)
lizzie_borden From: lizzie_borden Date: June 2nd, 2005 06:36 pm (UTC) (Link)
wow, congrats with the LA thing and good lu break a leg!
moowazz From: moowazz Date: July 2nd, 2005 05:51 am (UTC) (Link)
thanks :) I STILL owe you a picture of my current painting :/ but . . . to make up for it I will

  • put a link to the 2 websites I am in the process of putting together (so you can see my sloppiness) - well 2 URLs, only 1 website

  • I will put a picture of my first painting onto the website and attempt to make the image show up on here :)

  • I hope all is well
lizzie_borden From: lizzie_borden Date: July 2nd, 2005 06:15 am (UTC) (Link)
all is well with me

Have a happy 4th
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