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I'm not actually feeling devious, at least I don't believe I am. I just wanted to see what the little fox would look like.

So I'm remembering what it's like to have a bit of free time. Only I wish it coincided with the free time of my friends :P

I realized today, more so than before, I do not want to live in the city. I respect those who can and are not "hardened" by it, so to speak, but I personally am not a person who is centered enough to live here without being affected by the people around or completely ignoring the world around me, neither of these options do I like. It's like every person who is in a bad mood and puts it on those who pass by them, I want to sit down and explain "I understand something is making you not happy today, but we are people too and deserve as much concern and respect as do you" And yet I don't like imposing and I know I could not do that every time or I would never get anything accomplished other than making myself feel better that the person knows where I am coming from - whether they agree with me or not is their own decision, but at least I would have shared my side of the story.

I'm very excited because I have worked it out so I will have a decent vacation, 1 week at the beach with my family. I've gotten out of the city quite a bit recently, but 2 or 3 days, including travel, is enver enough tor elax, I need at least a day or 2 to decompress, then I can begin relaxing. I only wish my wfs (boy) could join me. At the same time it's good to know someone who cares about my kitties will be watching them and that they will have company for more than a few minutes. It's also good to get some me time. When living in an apartment where basically one room is used until construction is finished, and I rarely get the apartment to myself due to our schedules, it's hard to get my "me" time - which I have established is needed in my world.

I definitely miss school and it was hard not to know what to do with myself this summer. It's harder to make plans with friends in the city than at home - not sure why, probably many reasons, but whatever the case it is. I also miss just driving, with the fresh air blowing in my face (I even love driving on the highway with the windows down, unless it was too cold, it didn't bother me) Or taking walks with the dogs (one, or two, preferably mine, who passed when I was 21?) along the canal and even onto the wilderness trails along the potomac river - more nature-based hobbies (not to mention free or fairly cheap - only an advantage to the hobbies, not the reason for them) So needless to say, I'm quite anxious and excited to be getting back to my overwhelming school schedule this fall.

Hopefully they will start on my apartment soon since the stated construction time is 14 weeks (I was hoping they'd finish BEFORE school). Anyone know any good cheap hotels where you can have pets? You know, just in case I can't deal at some point?

OK, well enough babble, I think I'm just trying to kill time until my quiz more than actually having anything to say - well that's not exactly true. I have something to say, or at least something inside of me that I want to get out, but I'm not quite sure what it is, or what it means, or even if it should belet out for that matter.

LOL - could I be any more cryptic?

OK, I shall stop taking up valuable page space

I hope all is well


Current Mood: devious
Current Music: clickling of keyboard, chatting, hum n buzz of machinery

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fjordhopper From: fjordhopper Date: July 19th, 2004 04:33 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm not a city person either, so I totally understand. My parents have a 500 acre county park (undeveloped - except for trails) that practically backs up to their property, and I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't walk there on occasion.
ellipsedream From: ellipsedream Date: July 20th, 2004 07:35 am (UTC) (Link)
wow. me and yous a lot more alike than i guessed before. i think soul sisters or something.

you know that "Sunscreen Song" by Baz Luhrmann? "live in New York city once, but leave before it makes you hard. live in northern california once, but leave before it makes you soft." its true. everyone should. that whole song is goodstuff. :)

i say -- go watch the squirrels. they always make me feel better, the sweet, little silly-heads.
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