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Self reflection - a world of possibility
moowazz
moowazz
Self reflection


Have you ever gotten to that place where it seems your life has gone ahead without you?

You've caught up, sure, many times in fact, but this time

well this time
it seems like thistime is it
this time there is no catching up

you are done for?

For a good part of my life, not excluding currently, I have felt like I need to prove something

to my parents
to the world
to myself

Then there is friends

I find I collect friends

most people collect coins or stamps or little figurines with the big eyes - anything

I collect friends.

Unfortunately, unlike the aformentioned collectibles, friends need upkeeping.

Every once in a while I find I'll get one of those forwards to send to all your friends

and

well

I realize I need to clean out my address book - there I people I haven't talked to in months, some for a year or two.

I finally get the nerve to delete one or two - not because I don't like them,
but because neither of us have contacted each other, and we have only hung out or talked once or twice since we met

aka not good friends - anyone I've hung out with more than 5 times take me years to get up the nerve to delete.

So that takes me to now.

I have been a bum at home

You know what?

I am not going to complain.

*I have many many many people I care about, and a good deal who care about me
*I have things I want out of life, though I may not be sure how I will get them, I know eventually I will and that I'm willing to do what it takes.
*I am very lucky to be and have the things that are within me and around me.
*I will wait and find out if I have gotten into school before I worry about my next step.

Instead of typing on here and complaining I shall . . .
-call me wfs
-watch Monk
-read some of your LJs
-write some of my story!


I hope everyone is wonderful!

*big hug*
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low_key From: low_key Date: August 8th, 2003 03:30 pm (UTC) (Link)

For what it's worth...

I have a vague idea of what you're talking about. ;-)

*hugs back atcha*
moowazz From: moowazz Date: August 8th, 2003 05:47 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: For what it's worth...

*hug*

thanks, this made me smile :)

I am actually doing much better

I got a spurt of creativity (I have been stuck for a while) for my story! Very helpful.

I hope you be well :)

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