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It's late. I'm bored. I must keep myself awake - a world of possibility
It's late. I'm bored. I must keep myself awake
I must be awake anyhow, my mind is not working enough to think unthought thoughts, but I felt like writing. So here are some random thoughts of late.

The other thing, that I forgot to mention, that me mum discussed with her friends while she was up here was bipolar. I'm not going to say specifics, partially because I don't feel comfortable without permission, but mainly because I don't remember which parts were who.

One thing they mentioned was that someone who is bipolar can't keep interest in one subject for long periods of time, there must be change. One person they talked about would continuouly put themselves into projects, and always be doing a bunch of things at one time, always learning something new - a new class, a new hobby, whatever.

They also mentioned someone starting a fire because they were bipolar and off of their medication. I'm about to check up on the medical world's view of bipolarity (also known as manic depressive), but to me that didn't make sense. I can understand if it was an accident, like they had lit something - a candle, or even a fire in a fireplace - and forgotten about it because they got so wrapped up in some other task they started. My guess is that person had other medical conditions besides just being bipolar.

Update: My mouse has disappeared from the screen and has decided not to return, so depending on how much I feel like it later, you may or may not get my research results.

Anyhow - my point currently was the discussion brought me to a new realization about myself. Although I may not become disinterested in subject, I do continually take on new things and always want to learn something new. Unlike the person they were talking about, I always genuinely try to finish all that I initiate, even if it may be months down the rode.

For example, actually before my example I should probably note - so as not to confuse anyone - I was diagnosed bipolar when I was 18. I think I showed sins way before that, but I didn't ask or try to do anything about it until then.

OK, instead of an example I have decided to share how I find I make this work for me. I used to do this a long time ago, but until recently, and I think if this recent discussion had not brought the idea of changing focus had not been brought to my attention, it would have been a bit longer.

I have been working on my most recent project - a book. I found myself getting stuck. I know what needs to happen. I know the end result. I know what I want to say with the story, moral or whatever you would like to call it. I know some of the little twists and turns - but I don't know how it gets from one point to the next. That is what the challenge is. For some people writing is easy, for some people ideas for the story is easy. For me it is both, but it depends where my interest lies. There are a lot of examples and instances. It is a case by case basis.

Anyhow, with my current story, I decided to put some non-fiction throughout parts of the book - to make people question reality. I'm not sure about you, but when I find that in fiction books they mention non-fiction ideas or people or whatever here and there it makes me wonder "maybe this is real" or was loosely based on reality. Then again it could be entirely fiction. I will never know, but it's helpful to being more openminded when we question our reality.

Eep - off subject again.

So - putting in non-fiction aspects requires research. Research requires time. Time spent somewhere other than typing made me frustrated with myself. I kept telling myself I should be doing this. I should be doing that.

I told myself, researching was only a distraction to keep me from writing. Once I got to the researchin part though I would find myself thinking of another development in the plot or another part of the story to come out later or an idea that I would like to include, but it may need to wait for a different story, or (yeah right) a second book. This latter option not seeming very likely with my current mood - which I will get to in a moment.

I found that by allowing myself to just flow with what seems to be my nature, switching back and forth between two or more projects or processes at a time I am most productive.

At the same time I need to keep focused on what I hope to accomplish with each or I will go on some random tangent researching something that is of interest to me, but has nothing to do with any of my current tasks.

OK - quick note on my current feelings. Enjoying the process overall. I'm not sure if I enjoy it enough to want to do it on a regular basis. I have many story ideas -it's the writing them up and all the in-between parts that gets me stuck. Maybe short stories.

Acting and psychology those are more passions.

Does anyone know or is anyone good at editing?

I need some unbiased opinons about the story as well as general understanding of my phrases
- does it make sense?
- do i need more description?
- less description?

Ideally I'd like a few opinions to base each other off of.

Also if anyone knows someone or someones who know anything about the book business and are willing to share their knowledge - tips, advice, etc. - that would be appreciated as well

Also, if anyone for some reason is interested in reading my story, as long as you are willing to sign a confidentiaity agreement, I'm more than willing to send you a copy by e-mail.

Actually I think I will save this for another time. Currently I will leave you all with this though and see if your mind is anything like mine it that it feels they are connected somehow.

* from a friends post(onesoul, babies who learn sign language begin communicating much sooner than those who do not (hearing and non-hearing)

* a recent article - which I posted - about creativity vs. "normal" brain

* many great artists are "crazy"

* autistic people - I'm not sure about all, but at least from the books I picked up - understand/see in pictures (this may not be %100 correct, I will need to check into it)

* love - scientifically proven existence

* communication, something few people truly know how to do in the most simple form, people seem to make everything complex (this is an observation, and not always true and open to opinon)

eventually (as well as finishing the interviews) I hope to get that all down in a post.

Still the kitties.

I've been attempting to toilet train them for some time now, and I've come far enough that if I turned back it would bother me until I decided "I'm going to try again" making me start from the beginning versus where I am now.

yep, nuttin exciting. Basically sitting here waiting for the stuborn and 1/2 stubborn to use the litterbox inside the toilet so I can get into bed!

As soon as they all use the box inside the toilet I can cut a bigger hole in it than I already have, eventually forcing them to sit on the toilet seat, rather than inside the toilet!

I know they are capable, they are just stubborn.

Other kitty news, my poor Yem has a poofy front top lip making her look like she belongs in the Simpsons.

I think that is much much much more than enough an dI want to restart my computer so my mouse appears again.

Actually, maybe I'll just watch TV.

I hope everyone is enjoying their weekend and has a wonderful sunday.

Current Mood: exhausted exhausted

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From: limbic_region Date: July 20th, 2003 10:01 am (UTC) (Link)

I'm tired, but a few thoughts

Hmmph! LJ limits replies to 4300 characters - which my reply exceeded by about a 1000. See the email I sent you instead - feel free to repost any piece you would like. I have half a mind to hack.... let me not finish that thought.
picoland From: picoland Date: July 21st, 2003 04:58 am (UTC) (Link)
E- Erika Lieberman was a book editor for a number of years- contact her harpiegirl@aol.com
she may have some insight.
moowazz From: moowazz Date: July 21st, 2003 05:23 am (UTC) (Link)

(and just to letchya know for your address book it's harpiegrl - no "i")

How is Ren Faire stuff coming?

I'll be visiting the land Sept. 1st so look out

I hope everything is wonderful :)~
picoland From: picoland Date: July 21st, 2003 05:40 am (UTC) (Link)


yeah i knew dat.....read my journal for updates ya silly!
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