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A bit of my day and writings - a world of possibility
A bit of my day and writings
Today was truly nice.
-invigorating dancing
-some inspirational conversation with an old classmate.
-introduced to new parts of the city and some interesting conversation with a new person
-much fun with cousin and fiance, as always they were wonderful energy
-good vibes with genuinely goodhearted people

Now for something I wrote down the other night
From my pages of wonder, pixie dust, and anything that soars


I do wish I had one thing that comes with an intimate relationship . . .

someone who I could talk to once a day. For a few reasons

-something to look forward to dail
-someone whose voice makes me smile
-someone for whom my voice will be reason to smile
-someone who cares
-someone to care about
-someone with whom I could babble about anything to
-someone who would validate me
-someone to
~push me
~challenge me
~teach me
~learn from me
~grow with me (both as a cause and result)


Part of that was caused from thought of someone in my past.

Today, I was thinking about my relationship with that wonderful being and realized, it was more the essence of what it could have been and what I want to believe it was than what it actually was. I think I place too much on things then they sometimes deserve. I think sometimes things seem more wonderful then they are (not to say it wasn't, because it was better then anything I have ever been shown, and for a few small moments in time I believe it was everything I belived it to be) because I need and want them to be.

I need to get past that. It's hard. I'm slowly showing myself the harshness of reality. I hope it will one day be that those few moments will be continuous reality eventually.

One more post from my journal coming

I hope everyone is well

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From: nolf Date: July 26th, 2002 11:09 pm (UTC) (Link)
i can relate more than i even know.
moowazz From: moowazz Date: July 28th, 2002 08:42 pm (UTC) (Link)

lordrexfear From: lordrexfear Date: July 27th, 2002 04:20 am (UTC) (Link)
some interesting conversation
Only some? hehehe... just kidding.

This second part of this journal selection is very intriguing. You're too young to try to get yourself jaded from this... but I'll say this. Define intimate relationship, because I'm not sure a relationship has to be intimate to be the above things, it helps, but I'm not sure it's an immediate prerequisite but more something that helps in leading to an intimate relationship, maybe I'm wrong, it's just one of many opinions I could have/develop.
moowazz From: moowazz Date: July 28th, 2002 08:51 pm (UTC) (Link)

You're too young to try to get yourself jaded from this

not jaded, objective
well in my opinion :)

Define intimate relationship

in this case I am referring to being in a relationship, what society would all "boyfrend girlfriend", but I just don't like that term :)

though intimate can mean other things.

And, yes it can lead into that ort of relationship from a friendship, but I kinda don't like that. Meaning it comes about because there is so much signifigance hld from thse ypesof little things tha it's kinda that it's going to come about i these things are shared.

I prefer to be in a relationship in order for tat to occur, OR if it happens naturally, which is another story in itself. I wouldn't, however, want to create that sort of relationship (having someone there to serve these purposes kinda of takes awy the appeal and effect of it).

Hopefully that's not all babble and makes some sense.

I hope you are well.

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