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I'm trying to be more patient lately. Let things just happen as they… - a world of possibility
I'm trying to be more patient lately. Let things just happen as they will and trust more in life. I mean, of course, control what I can (like not driving into trees or selling my body or anything irrational~well "irrational" by society's terms, but that's another discussion).

I feel very stuck though and already want to be starting my new life, well not "new", rather continue growing.

I feel anxious and scared to be moving, but I am also incredibly excited and feel like until I have something, anything -job, apartment, roommate- established, I cannot grow anymore. I know this is very narrow-minded of me, but I need this jump into my future, this boost of something. Ineed something new, something to learn, some ~ I don't know what.

I also need this weekend to come. See, I am trying to be patient. It's not always working. LOL.

It's nice that my friends are all coming home this summer, even though I'm leaving soon. I feel so disconnected as of late though, I'm not sure why or how to fix it.

OK, I must sleep, another long day tomorrow.

I hope everyone is well.

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14kslum From: 14kslum Date: May 23rd, 2002 07:29 am (UTC) (Link)
Glad to see your making a move into the continuation of life. I feel like sometimes if I dont achieve or complete certain things then Im not what I should be, narrow minded?? naw, just mis-directed in what actually fullfils me inside, its not all that outside things that I look for it to be.......be well.........
musus From: musus Date: May 23rd, 2002 03:23 pm (UTC) (Link)

<gives a thumbs up>
Wise words. I definitely agree. Sooooo often it is hard to see what is in our own best interest, versus what makes us feel comfortable. Unfortunetely, the mind can cloud the thoughts..making our desires seem like what is best. It never ceases to amaze me how powerful the mind is.

I too am proud of you, Elysa. Keep forging forth! All your friends are here to support you! :)
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