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My weekend at Hyde - a world of possibility
My weekend at Hyde
I almost decided not to type this up, but figured maybe it would be good.

This is a long, long, loooong entry, and I was gonna split it up, but I dun feel like it, actually I will.

Basicaly my decision to type this up was b/c I hate giving advice, I want people to figure things out on their own so they learn whatever it is they need to learn. On the other hand if either quesitons I ask people or my own experience will help someone else, great.

So here is the homework from hyde and my responses.

Homework is in green and my responses are blue.


Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate,
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness that frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.

You're playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enightened about shrinking
So that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.
It is not just in some, it is in everyone.

And, as we let our own insight sine, we unconsciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

quote from Marianne Williamson
used in Nelson Mandela's 1994 Inaugural Speech.

Homework for Friday Seminar
(all family members participating in seminar must complete this assignment and bring to first seminar)

Read above poem and write one full page in rsponse to the following questions.

What feelings and emotions were evoked as you read this poem?

How does this poem relate to your attitude toward "Success and Failure"?

What would you need to risk living a life of "greatness? Be Specific

Write from your heart not your head.

Besides tthe entire God thing, b/c I have issues with that, I think it's a good poem. Anywho . . .

my response

I believe not only do we fear being great but that just knowing we are great is not enough or rather does not seem enough at times. Therefore we fear others not accepting or noticing our greatness. Too often are people trying to do more or less with their lives in order to be looked at by those around them in a certain way, be it respect, love, loyalty, "popularity", when in truth it should be for themselves. They are the only one who will have to know everything in their entire life, every accomplishment, every mistake, every lesson learned, also the only one to enjoy every moment of their life. Therefore they should be & do what makes them enjoy life, what they feel is right.

By living in the standards other people set one is attempting to live in someone else's life, but they cannot for they are themself & must live with their
own parameters, their own abilities, their own happiness & hardness & learning, their own self.

Living a life of greatness, to me, is living a life to the best of my ability and living by my standards, my own goals & dreams, not influenced by other peoples goals & standards. In a way I believe I am already "risking" to live a life of greatness. My career goal is to be a working actor. Countless people have told me how hard it is or looked at me differently when I've told them - like have no clue about anything, like "oh she's an actor" as if it's a cop out profession and you just need to look pretty, or tell me I should do something else, on & on & on, discouraging me.

I thank them for their coments take some helpful ones into account and forge on, continue towards my goal. The career choice is mine, for me, not them.

( this next part I didn't write, but said in the seminar so the wording is not exact)
I realized as I read this, I've got my career down, I've got a goal and am working towards it. My problem is relating to people. I used to change myself so people would like me. I don't do this anymore. I have become very aware of who I am as a person and feel comfortable around anyone.

On the other hand I don't let anyone get close, or get close to anyone because I'm afraid of losing myself again.

And on to part two . . .
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