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moowazz
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Phone call, about 2 seconds ago

call back for the roll of Ramona Quimby in the Theatreworks Tour

Tour = not staying in Manhattan

cats
friends
work
etc.

First thought : Does it coincide with my current rehearsal schedule?

I ask

yes it does

erg

Why do I feel like I just lost something big, even though I technically never had it?

I'll try to look on the bright side . . .

I was called back!
I am in rehearsal
I am in other rehearsal of sorts
I have my kitties ~ it probably would've been hard to find something for an extended period of time so quickly

I have too much other stuff to worry about

but, yeah, that still sucks big time! It would have been the first big thing to put on my resume. It was only a callback, who's to say I would have gotten it anyhow?

OK, feeling a little better.

I guess I just wanted the universe to know I am capable and making my way - I just don't think I can abandon one project for another.

Thanks for letting me vent

I hope everyone can enjoy the day (no matter what the weather's like).

:)~
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arkos From: arkos Date: December 20th, 2002 08:03 am (UTC) (Link)
I just want you to know that my current schedule makes me available for out of state pet sitting.
moowazz From: moowazz Date: December 20th, 2002 08:17 am (UTC) (Link)

Thank you for the support :)

I will definitely keep that in mind.

I do hope by the next time I get offered a tour you aren't - meaning that you have things going really well and therefore can't travel OR going so well you can trave; when you like (job or pleasure).

I hope everything down there is treating you well.

Say hello to lil girl

:)
From: brave_heart Date: December 20th, 2002 09:27 am (UTC) (Link)

Abundance.

I couldn't post anything on your PREVIOUS entry, which probably means you don't want any comments on it. I can't help myself, though, since you brought up some issues I've been thinking about.

These are four sentences you wrote at various points in that entry:
1. "I can't have everything in my life with as much abundance as I may want."
2. "If you want something in your life, why would you substitute it with something else?"
3. "I think sometimes people are so afraid of not getting what they actually want, that they instead grasp what they know they are capable of having, even if it's not their first choice."
4. "I have recently realized that things I want to happen often do."

What I've been working on lately is the universal principle that you CAN have everything with as much abundance as you want. Abundance in every aspect of our lives is being showered on us, but we turn it away. All we have to do is accept it. The things that we want to happen, that we allow to happen, will always happen.
moowazz From: moowazz Date: December 20th, 2002 09:36 am (UTC) (Link)

Re: Abundance. (quick and not complete)

"1. "I can't have everything in my life with as much abundance as I may want."

What I've been working on lately is the universal principle that you CAN have everything with as much abundance as you want. Abundance in every aspect of our lives is being showered on us, but we turn it away. All we have to do is accept it. The things that we want to happen, that we allow to happen, will always happen.

I think I should have been a bit more clear. For the most part, yes I agree with you. Now here is my question, do you really think it's possible to see your friends as often as you might like without having to give up opportunities of other sorts?

Hmmm, how to put it better, b/c I don't want to make my friends sound unimportant, b/c they definitely ARE.

I am an actor. This is my passion. In order to get anywhere in this business I need to go to every serious opportunaity (auditions, meet with agents if called to, etc.) Due to this my schedule is very, erratic (-?-). Seeing some of my friends is very hard since they work 9-5 jobs and my free time is either randomly during the day or late at night. I have rehearsals and auditions on weekends too.

Because this specific want is not fully on us we can't always get the abundance we may dream of. But it's ok, and in some ways better, it lets us realize which friendships are strong - or rather have a deeper connection, one that withstands and we can still connect.

Make a bit more sense?

OK, must get off damn compoooter

I hope you are well and smiling :)~
low_key From: low_key Date: December 20th, 2002 04:15 pm (UTC) (Link)
Trust me, I feel your pain.
*hugs*
moowazz From: moowazz Date: December 20th, 2002 08:27 pm (UTC) (Link)

Wanna know what's worse? I now think I am a flake in their eyes.

I called back saying I had talked to a few people and if there was still a spot open would like to audition (this was on a machine).

I then called back again (got machine again) and left another message saying "Hello, this is Elysa Barron again, I realize I probably sound like a flake, I'm new to the acting business and wanted to ask you some questions . . ."

basically here's the deal - I wish I had said this the first time I talked to her - I have rehearsals, but only on Saturdays. If the tour wasn't too far from NY I could have done both, and the 2 weekends I had performances for the current production I could have had an understudy go on - if they have understudies (which my guess would be yes since it's equity)

whatever the case, I look a bit of a fool.

at least I'll know for next time, lol.

*hug*

:)~
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