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Deep cleansing breaths - a world of possibility
moowazz
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Deep cleansing breaths
*smile*


The subway was extremely quiet, calm and peaceful this morning. It was quite empty.


I've had good human contact this week -mental and physical.

I was able to see some friends this week. I was able to see many different kinds of interaction between people. It was quite enjoyable.

Males and females are more similar in their conversing and relating to each other than I thought. They also have different transitioning skills from one topic of conversation to the next.

I received a wonderful kiss. Encompassing physical, mental, and spiritual compatability. (The physical is very rare. I guess I just learned to deal for the sake of the other two. It was a nice surprise)

I'm not sure if anything shall come of it, for the beautiful soul seems a bit ~ I'm not sure ~ focused on the moment. I'm not sure how else to put it. This can be both a good and bad thing. I'm just not sure how concrete he will be. We shall see.

I'm still glad it happened though. He just makes me smile to know someone like him is out there.


I need to buy a pen camera or something because I have wanted at least 10 times in the last few days to take pictures of my surroundings. Sometimes there are people in these images I see and I therefore don't want them to be scared by me - hence a pen camera, possible to capture what I see almost without disruption.


I've found I have an addicted personality when it comes to food - I love the tastes, I want more just for the delectable tastes in my mouth. I have to stop myself sometimes because I am no longer hungry but just craving the taste.

I also found this is not a normal thing for me. It only happens - I think, I haven't paid enough attention - when I'm trying not to think about intimate relationships. The only type of possibly stressful situations that I tend to be ungrounded with how to deal head on.

For example, when I get stressed with acting stuff - be it an audition or slacking off, I work on a monologue or finding a new one or reading a play or printing up resumes and cutting them - I do something to make myself productive.

On the other hand, I find I deal much better with intimate personal relationships than I used to. I would let my entire world crumble around me. Or rather, I made the relationship my world, so if it didn't work I felt lost.

Now it's just something nice to add to the many quirks, amusements, comforts, the many things life offers us to enjoy.


In the same as food, I find it's hard to change topics of conversation, I find I beat something to death because I so much want to understand it, each and every small detail and why and how and the essence of whatever's underneath it all. I sometimes need to stop myself because I have extracted all I can at that specific time. Let it breath and grow.

In turn I have trouble transitioning, I feel odd just going on to another topic without somehow connecting it, my mind can wander and because someone say "elephant" I think of bad habits.

This one I can actually explain. There is a play, Six Degrees of Separation I believe, in which the husband mentions "it's like if you try not to think about pink (purple?) elephants, what will you think about but pink (purple?) elephants" - not exact words, but same idea.

Sometimes I can't place the train of thought, and even if I can, who is truly interested?


Also, I find my thoughts change from one second to the next so quickly I have trouble updating people on what has been happening in my life because I am in the present, in the current frame of mind, and might not want to go back.


The bachlorette party went well ~ which reminds me . . .
Anyone interested in seeing a Variety show should go see
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*smile*

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The subway was extremely quiet, calm and peaceful this morning. It was quite empty.


I've had good human contact this week -mental and physical.

I was able to see some friends this week. I was able to see many different kinds of interaction between people. It was quite enjoyable.

Males and females are more similar in their conversing and relating to each other than I thought. They also have different transitioning skills from one topic of conversation to the next.

I received a wonderful kiss. Encompassing physical, mental, and spiritual compatability. (The physical is very rare. I guess I just learned to deal for the sake of the other two. It was a nice surprise)

I'm not sure if anything shall come of it, for the beautiful soul seems a bit ~ I'm not sure ~ focused on the moment. I'm not sure how else to put it. This can be both a good and bad thing. I'm just not sure how concrete he will be. We shall see.

I'm still glad it happened though. He just makes me smile to know someone like him is out there.


I need to buy a pen camera or something because I have wanted at least 10 times in the last few days to take pictures of my surroundings. Sometimes there are people in these images I see and I therefore don't want them to be scared by me - hence a pen camera, possible to capture what I see almost without disruption.


I've found I have an addicted personality when it comes to food - I love the tastes, I want more just for the delectable tastes in my mouth. I have to stop myself sometimes because I am no longer hungry but just craving the taste.

I also found this is not a normal thing for me. It only happens - I think, I haven't paid enough attention - when I'm trying not to think about intimate relationships. The only type of possibly stressful situations that I tend to be ungrounded with how to deal head on.

For example, when I get stressed with acting stuff - be it an audition or slacking off, I work on a monologue or finding a new one or reading a play or printing up resumes and cutting them - I do something to make myself productive.

On the other hand, I find I deal much better with intimate personal relationships than I used to. I would let my entire world crumble around me. Or rather, I made the relationship my world, so if it didn't work I felt lost.

Now it's just something nice to add to the many quirks, amusements, comforts, the many things life offers us to enjoy.


In the same as food, I find it's hard to change topics of conversation, I find I beat something to death because I so much want to understand it, each and every small detail and why and how and the essence of whatever's underneath it all. I sometimes need to stop myself because I have extracted all I can at that specific time. Let it breath and grow.

In turn I have trouble transitioning, I feel odd just going on to another topic without somehow connecting it, my mind can wander and because someone say "elephant" I think of bad habits.

This one I can actually explain. There is a play, <u>Six Degrees of Separation</u> I believe, in which the husband mentions "it's like if you try not to think about pink (purple?) elephants, what will you think about but pink (purple?) elephants" - not exact words, but same idea.

Sometimes I can't place the train of thought, and even if I can, who is truly interested?


Also, I find my thoughts change from one second to the next so quickly I have trouble updating people on what has been happening in my life because I am in the present, in the current frame of mind, and might not want to go back.


The bachlorette party went well ~ which reminds me . . .
Anyone interested in seeing a Variety show should go see <a href="http"//www.bindlestiff.org"target="_blank">The Bindlestiff Family Cirkus</a> It's a great show. I plan on going back some time soon.

I shall babble no more.

Instead I shall go see a movie

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Also, I finally have gotten around to working on the <a href="http://www.livejournal.com/talkread.bml?journal=moowazz&itemid=161019"target="_blank">thank you gift to my folks</a>.

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So far I have typed up that story in Calligraphy font on nice paper along with 2 copies of the image (the drawing).

Originally I was going to draw/paint a copy of the drawng, but I already have 2 printed up anf feel that would be overdoing it.

I want something meaningful but not forced, any ideas?

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I hope everyone is well

:)~

Current Music: Proyecto Uno - El Tiburon

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moowazz From: moowazz Date: October 13th, 2002 11:18 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: just a thought

That's a great idea.

Unfortunately I already printed the story up.

Next time I do something like this I am definitely going to try that. Thanks.

I hope you are well

:)~
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